Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Goals & Rewards

Current Weight: 133.8 lbs.
Goal Weight: 115 lbs.

Getting back into it

It's been a hot minute since I wrote my last post.. and for reasons I was ashamed to confront.  I had set some lofty health goals last month, but I kept failing at them.  Instead of burning off the weight, I found myself in the corner of my room each night, ashamed of the cookie crumbs lining my clothes and furniture.  Chocolate, sugar, ginger, green tea, molasses... you name it, I scarfed it down - not just one or two, but as many as were available - each time, allowing food's momentary high overwhelm my inner goals and pursuits, and blind me from my real feelings.  I kept finding solace, comfort and an unhealthy friendship in food, and it wasn't until I saw an episode on another emotional eater on TV that I finally realized my comfort isn't my true priority; it is my health and self-esteem that are priorities.  It's not selfish or silly to dedicate so much energy and time to these pursuits, because I need this for myself.  I'm realizing that I might have lost weight the last time by chance but this time, it's going to be through hard work, sweat, pain and true discomfort. And when I finally fit into my skinny jeans at age 30, I will know it was worth it.

Friday, May 3, 2013

My Beauty Must Haves!

First, the hair:
Shampoo by Rahua
Conditioner by Rahua

7 Day Treatment by Clear

Second, skincare:

Anti Blemish Wash by Erno Laszlo
Facial essence by SKII

Using Shiseido Facial Cotton pads- they're worth the price!
Eye Serum by Erno Laszlo

PM: Facial Oil by Rodin

Oil Control Moisturizer with SPF by Cetaphil
For the body:

Body Creme by La Mer

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Beauty from the inside out

Last night I couldn't fall asleep so I decided to watch a documentary I've been eyeing on iTunes on the beauty industry, called "Chasing Beauty."

I loved Jiro Dreams of Sushi so I had high hopes for this documentary.  Artistically speaking, I didn't think it was as well done as Jiro Dreams of Sushi- in terms of cinematography, music, pacing, etc., but it was still very thought-provoking and certainly a topic of larger relevance.  It follows an aspiring model landing in LA, unsuccessfully interviewing at all the big modeling agencies, as well as pageant specialists, a plastic surgeon, a beauty editor, former and current models, makeup artists, historians, parents of models and model recruiters.  Since I had watched Girl Model, I thought this documentary would mostly detail the insanity of the modeling industry but this documentary was primarily about what beauty has meant in the past and in the present, the obsession over beauty, the advantages of beauty, and what it means to different people.  For what it's worth, I believe it's a worthwhile watch.  It reminded me of how absolute the saying 'beauty comes from within' truly is.  I have no aspirations in the beauty sector but the message was still very applicable and poignant.  The outside 'pretty' isn't true beauty, and the term beauty isn't to be conflated with good, nice, successful, etc.  The term 'pretty' doesn't even stay constant nor does it mean the same to different people in the same room.  Your own definition of beauty is for you to choose, for you to protect, for you to keep discovering and for you to nurture.

Monday, April 29, 2013

4 Major beauty no-no's

1.  Laziness

Not removing make up and cleansing the face -> Breakouts & Aged skin!!

2.  Sleep Deprivation

Your skin recovers when you sleep!!

3.  Hydration

Beauty works from the inside -> out!

4.  SPF

No Sun protection -> wrinkles, sun spots, etc.

Immediate Craving:

Beer-battered onion rings
French fries in Belgium 

Chocolate.. well, anything!
Olive & Mushroom Cheese Pizza
Baguette Ham & Cheese sandwiches in France

NOT to feel like this!

Get back to my racing weight!
Get back into my clothes!


Drink refreshing & detoxifying water!
Healthy Korean diet!

Places I've been so far... where should I go next?